The Power of Now

After seeing this recommended by RSD and seeing all their junkies absolutely praise this book I was a bit skeptical. However, it was on my reading list for some time, before the RSD junkies started crowning Tolle as their new saviour. 

I thought it seemed pretty simple, 'don't think' thats it, but after reading the book it kind of gives you some insight into why our mind is always over active and little tips on how to stay present. It is an extremely easy read too and I love the way it is set out. However, the book does trail off towards the end and it is definitely not as amazing as all these guys are saying it is. Anyone who is familiar with meditation and eastern philosophy probably won't get as much out of it. I got quite a bit out of it, but it is definitely not a magic pill, essential reading; yes, but not any more so than say Tony Robbins.

So Tuesday night rolled around and I had a rare glimpse of being very present. I wasn't 'trying' I know in the past if I have experienced AA I have 'tried' to be in the moment but it was too late and I could not manage it for longer than a couple of seconds. On Tuesday I noticed that not only were I in the moment but I was a lot less 'hyper' than usual. Usually I get in state and I'm joking around with the boys and we all get quite hyper and rowdy; our state has been pumped up. But on this occasion I did not feel like that, but at the same time I did not feel tired, down, or drained. It was almost like I was just 'nice'; content, peaceful. This allowed me to walk around the venue and just express myself, my game was a lot less energetic, but did not take a knock. I tried to 'pump' myself up but it did not work, it was a weird sensation, the closest I have come to drawing my state from within. I noticed a lot more girls opened me too rather than me opening them.

The second thing I noticed was while my wing was chatting to a girl, I went to the bar and got some water. Walked away after getting my drink and just posted up against a wall. Now my mind was blank, I was just taking in my environment. In the past if I have been by myself I have felt a slight unease, an itch or panic to 'get in set'. But I was really content at just posting up and taking everything in. I did not feel anxious at all, sometimes your stomach is telling you you are anxious but your mind pretends everything is ok. But I really was content, I did not feel a rush or panic to jump in set. I chilled and waited then ended up opening a guy that was doing something crazy next to me.

It was an interesting experience, I have yet to feel the same as I did last Tuesday. But it was an insightful glimpse into how it feels when your state is drawn from within and you are completely outside of your head.